This is my account of how I was introduced into the teachings of Amitayau.
I am not Buddhist in this life but I do believe in past lives I have been.
It was in the years of 1994-95 when my children were younger. We were all going through a very rough period in our lives together as I have mentioned before in my writings, but it was also a time of new beginnings. We were all very excited with our new life and our new freedoms. We had moved back into our old neighborhood and the children felt good and safe being back at their old school with their friends.
I on the other hand had many new problems to deal with and it wasn’t like I hadn’t dealt with these problems before. It’s just that even if you have a partner who isn’t there for you mentally, who’s really tuned out of the marriage completely. In your mind you can still play this little game of security that he’s/they’re there for you to back you up, if you should falter in any way. Well I guess they are in a pinch, but not very lovingly.
Being truly physically out on my own with the two children, at first, was a stark reality and one that I had to get used to. They were so used to being ruled with an iron fist, literally, that when I tried to discipline them they just laughed at me. It took a lot of talking, yes screaming at times, and my displays of anguish over the situation.
Until the one day that I got so angry and upset over a situation that was supposed to be a fun event that the boys were acting strange about (I’m still kind of confused about why to this day). I just stopped in my tracks, became silent, looked at my older son and said, in a very calm and soft tone said,
“That’s it! I’m no longer spanking you guys! We’re out on our own, there will be no more hitting in this house. We have to respect each other and walked out of their room.”
I realized that I was just carrying on where their father had left off. It was like they were trying to get me to treat them the same way, so they would feel secure by carrying on in a way that felt ‘normal’ to them. It was all they ever knew, up until that point.
It was, at this point in my life that I had the experience of meeting with Amitayau. I was having a fitful dreams about living in a house and my basement kept flooding. Night after night I would have these dreams some I have written down because I had looked up water and understood it’s meaning of being of the subconscious and spiritual.
Finally one night I dreamt that the flood was at it’s worst. All of my belongings were floating around the basement. All of these people’s belongings were in my basement floating around with all of everyone’s garbage too. (I believe that the belongings and the garbage represented my own life, future and past lives, plus even the people that I interact with during these lives all jumbled up together in a big mess) I was on one side of my basement stuck and I had to get to the other side. The water was raging and I could not get across. I didn’t know what to do to live through the situation let alone clean it all up in the end.
Then I was on a wooden dock and the water in my basement turned into a river. Along the dock came a young man all dressed in white. Beautiful white, so clean he was almost glowing and he asked me if he could help me. I said that it was too much to ask my problems were too great. He said that he was here to help me. and he was smiling and seemingly really happy to help me. So I said I would be forever grateful if he would do that for me.
Then a canoe type boat appeared by the dock and he was in it at the front of it. He said to get in. As I went to get in I noticed there was what looked like a cow laying on it’s side in the boat in front of him. It looked like it was dead but it was covered or painted in reds, blues, yellows, and adorned with gold it was very intricately painted. Silly me thought it was some sort of food and made a comment to that fact and he started to laugh! He thought that was the funniest thing.
As I got in he told me to sit and hang on. He said he would steer the boat and all I had to do was trust him and he would lead me through all of the rubble and garbage in the water. He said that if I really trusted him he would be here to do the same thing in my everyday life. That he would lead me through all of my everyday troubles and garbage in my life. That’s why he came to meet me here in the first place.
As he was talking to me he was steering the canoe expertly through the river which had turned into my raging basement and we sailed through these waves that went up 10 feet in the air and we started to laugh after how I saw how skilled he was.
When we got to the other side. I agreed that I would really like his help guiding my life. I was so very grateful for his help. I got out of the canoe and he said my name is Amitayau. I said please spell it for me I don’t want to forget it. So he spelled it for me three times in my sleep A-M-I-T-A-Y-A-U and made me repeat it so I wouldn't forget it.
I woke up immediately and fired up the computer to do a search. I wanted to find out if there was any information on who I just met in my dream. I was very astonished and grateful when I found the information on Amitayus The Buddha of Infinite Life.